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i love my mom

i love my mom

Carlotta Shaw
Jul 30, 2024
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My mother’s eyes, dark denim blue, asking me to be okay.
I wonder what it was like for her to witness her baby at her lowest,
if she ever considered teenage heartbreak for me when she hardly knew it herself.
I hope she knows how much I wish to protect her,
and how badly I want her to have experienced a childhood of cliched normalcy.
I yearn for her to have known the feeling of having a mother to cry to
about the boy who didn’t confess about the other girl.
I wish her body felt the warmth of her mother like I’ve had for 24 years.
Sleeping in her bed several nights in a row after he left,
and memorizing the tone of emphatic love in her voice
when she shook me by my shoulders:
”You need to snap out of it! You need to take care of yourself!”

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