My faith and I

an ever-changing relationship at its best.

Religion has never been a particularly bright spot for me. Rather, it has been a source of self-doubt, inadequacy, and rejection for nearly as long as memory serves. In childhood, I tried to bully myself into being a believer, to fall in line and fit right in. I never found myself able to do that fully. At some points, I felt that I was living a double-…